Wanting memories


" I am sitting here wanting memories to teach me to see the beauty in the world through my own eyes. "

Classes are getting dull. I hate it when I get bored with my curriculum. Don't get me wrong when I say "bored" though. They aren't too easy. I think I have challenged myself enough, but I'm just tired. I'm tired of being here. It was so nice to be home during spring break. I miss it. I miss the simplicity of pre-college life. Things here are always crazy and hectic. I have no music to turn to. I have no piano downstairs to play. I think I know what I miss most though. I miss church. Not church church. I miss the community. I miss being a part of the choir and just feeling so much a part of that family. I wonder if they miss me. I wonder sometimes if anyone misses me. All the people that I've ever known, all of my friends from years ago, all of my friends from not years ago... I wonder if they ever think of me. I think of them.

I'm actually very happy right now. Things couldn't be better. I'm the same happy, motivated person as always. I don't know where I'd be without her though. She is the light in my life. Thank you, Amanda.

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Spring break is wonderful. I am so tired of work. I am so tired of work and in need of so much of a break that I find typing in this thing a waste of time. No one reads it, no one cares- I don't care, so I probably won't type in it this week unless I am really bored. I'm alive though and if you must know, I am happier than ever :-)